Euphoria .

Saturday, October 12, 2013 @ 11:40 AM with 0 comment(s)

Hello Lovlies!

So YES, I know I was suppose to post and blog about my outings during the holidays which I should have plenty of time to do, but I'm sorry, I just haven't had the discipline to sit down and do a proper post. And technically, I shouldn't be using time now because I actually am having a high fever now but amazingly I am still slightly awake.

First of all, let's do a short sum up of the people I went out with this holiday ok?

Went Strictly with my favorite weird besf.

Finally met up with "my" two dudes after forever.

And I met Nela from Designeros!! (:

Then I went to USS with JANJAN!!!! <3 OMG best outing to USS ever. Tried so many rides. Haha. Transformers was the best I think.

Oh. And we had yoghurt. (:

Yay!

Then I spent the day with my xiaogu. ;3 family dates are always fun.

And then I met up with Leann went to a Japanese Buffet!!! My stomach wasn't feeling too well today. And I wasn't able to eat a lot. ): but it was still fun going out with her. :3

Yupp, told you it was going to be short. haha. It's crazy la. Like. close to 2 months and I only met up with a few groups of people. What even right..

I really wanted to go to my class chalet too, but I came down with a really high fever of 38.7. Ugh. No wonder I wanted to die otw back.

But yeah.

Secondly, I was actually looking around in my lappy for a bunch of questions/quizzes that I saved somewhere.But in the end I just found certain convos from the past which I saved and it made me really sad. ):

So I think it's safer to search for some in my Handphone.

I found a 40 questions thing which seems really interesting and so yupp. Read on for more facts you may or may not already know.

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

Oh my gosh I have so many movies that I love. But they are all DIsney movies though. And they all have that small romantic element in it because I'm a hopeless romantic that way.

2: Talk about your first kiss.

It hasn't happened yet. But I'm sure when it does (if it does. LOL.), it's gonna be perfect and well worth waiting for. (:

3: Talk about the person for which you've had the most intense romantic feelings.

Haha. Gosh. This is such a horrible question to answer in public like that because like. I can't say everything or people's impression of me will change completely because I will go all hardcore cheesy.

But um. I know for sure that love isn't a feeling. And so I assume romantic feelings is like. Those butterflies in your stomach, or just smiling uncontrollably when you're with the person or even just when he starts the conversation first. So um. To talk about that person.

Idk. I'm just so thankful for him and I'm the happiest when I'm with him.

I saw this quote. and I edited certain parts which I disagreed with but this is generally what I hope to have. Of cuz there's other stuff. But. Yeah.

“How To Tell If Somebody Loves You:

Somebody loves you if they pick an eyelash off of your face or wet a napkin and apply it to your dirty skin. You didn’t ask for these things, but this person went ahead and did it anyway. They don’t want to see you looking like a fool with eyelashes and crumbs on your face. They notice these things. They really look at you and are the first to notice if something is amiss with your beautiful visage!

Somebody loves you if they assume the role of caretaker when you’re sick. Unsure if someone really gives a shit about you? Fake a case of food poisoning and text them being like, “oh my god, so sick. need water.” Depending on their response, you’ll know whether or not they REALLY love you. “That’s terrible. Feel better!” earns you a stay in friendship jail; “Do you need anything? I can come over and bring you get well remedies!” gets you a cozy friendship suite. It’s easy to care about someone when they don’t need you. It’s easy to love them when they’re healthy and don’t ask you for anything beyond change for the parking meter. Being sick is different. Being sick means asking someone to hold your hair back when you vomit. Either love me with vomit in my hair or don’t love me at all.

Somebody loves you if they call you out on your bullshit. They’re not passive, they don’t just let you get away with murder. They know you well enough and care about you enough to ask you to chill out, to bust your balls, to tell you to stop. They aren’t passive observers in your life, they are in the trenches. They have an opinion about your decisions and the things you say and do. They want to be a part of it; they want to be a part of you.

Somebody loves you if they don’t mind the quiet. They don’t mind running errands with you or cleaning your apartment while blasting some annoying music. There’s no pressure, no need to fill the silences. You know how with some of your friends there needs to be some sort of activity for you to hang out? You don’t feel comfortable just shooting the shit and watching bad reality TV with them. You need something that will keep the both of you busy to ensure there won’t be a void. That’s not love. That’s “hey babe! i like you okay. do you wanna grab lunch? i think we have enough to talk about to fill two hours!” It’s a damn dream when you find someone you can do nothing with. Whether you’re skydiving together or sitting at home and doing different things, it’s always comfortable. That is love.

Somebody loves you if they want you to be happy, even if that involves something that doesn’t benefit them. They realize the things you need to do in order to be content and come to terms with the fact that it might not include them. Never underestimate the gift of understanding. When there are so many people who are selfish and equate relationships as something that only must make them happy, having someone around who can take their needs out of any given situation if they need to.

Somebody loves you if they can order you food without having to be told what you want. Somebody loves you if they rub your back at any given time. Somebody loves you if they don’t care about your job or how much money you make. It’s a relationship where no one is selling something to the other. No one is the prostitute. Somebody loves you if they’ll watch a movie starring Kate Hudson because you really really want to see it. Somebody loves you if they’re able to create their own separate world with you, away from the internet and your job and family and friends. Just you and them.

Somebody will always love you. If you don’t think this is true, then you’re not paying close enough attention.”

- Ryan O’Connell

Yeah.

With him. I feel loved.

And I don't really know what else anyone could ask for. (:

And I really hope this lasts.

I'm praying it does.

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

I did a post on that before. So i shan't answer it again.

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.

I actually cannot remember any worst or best birthdays because each birthday is usually a great one. (:

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

Wow. Um.

The first thing that came to mind was my physical body. My legs and arms and eyebags and everything. But I think that it's not my biggest. My biggest insecurity is the fact that i may be replaced and I'm just not good enough for anyone to want around for a long time. And that there are so many people who are more interesting and beautiful and better this me, less broken, more confident. And that how my insecurity may come across as clingy not just in terms of boy girl relationships but friendships too. It's tiring being around insecure people. I understand that. But i don't want to be the one who people just give up on because it's too tiring to keep reassuring them. I tend to overthink about not being good enough for people to want around and I'm just really clingy. ):

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

I got over my irritation of crying babies on the bus. I'm SO proud of myself for that.

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

Haha. This is pretty hard.

Mm. I like how my eyes are brown. And the matching mole I have with my brother. How my top row of teeth are rather straight and most importantly, I'm fearfully and wonderfully made by God. (And that's not really a little thing.)

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

I don't really remember stuff like that. But it's probably with my mum. Haha.

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

Ummmmmmmmmmmm. Oh oh. I had those. Continuation dreams kinda thing. And I was on an adventure and there were all the people I loved. That was a really good dream.

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

Idk. Probably something disgusting or about someone dying. I still remember this nightmare I had when I was 4/5. Where my hamster was on a speedboat with me and it fell off and drowned and then a lot of other people on the boat died. And then my parents fell off too. Then I woke up crying. Lol.

13: Talk about the first time you had sex.

It'll be after marriage.

14: Talk about a vacation.

I went to New Zealand and it was a really fun vacation and I would do it again in a heartbeat. (: (also because the guy I had a crush on at that time was there with me and like omg I got to stay with him under the same roof for 2 weeks. Haha!!!)

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

2012. Where I learn the most about myself, about God, what it meant to be broken, what it meant to be happy, what it meant to be sad, what it meant to persevere. What it meant to think you were in love, and what it meant to realise that sometimes the people who love you most were beside you all along and there really wasn't a need to look further.

16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to.

I don't go to parties much so like. I can't answer this. Though there were a few parties like the ones by YanYi.

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

Ryan Higa. He seems like a really nice and genuine person and someone who's just really quirky and fun to be around. Omg. And Bethany Mota. She seems like the sweetest person ever. Id love to be friends with her.

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

I got closer to three of the most important people in my life, Leanna, Celia and Janelle.

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

This is secondary school right? I was depressed and stuff and I did majority of the things which I regretted during this period. Basically a period of my life id like to forget. But it was also during this time that I met more really important people in my life and because of that, I would go through it all over again. (:

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

I found out what it meant to belong and bond to a class.

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

Can I not. ):

22: Talk about your worst fear.

Being replaced. As seen above.

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

Um...during a audition? Haha. Oh. Or during that period where I applied so many times to try and get into vet. :/

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

There are so many. Like. Literally so many from so many different people. I can't just choose one. But I'll show you a screenshot of one.

(: I still smile and get that warm fuzzy feeling each time I read it. Haha. And there's all those other ones which are in letters and stuff which if I take a picture of id have to blank out the whole thing.

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

Sleep. Eat. Get really clingy and needy. Haha. Not good.

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.

I think dimples are adorable.

28: Talk about your fetishes.

HAHA NOH.

29: Talk about what turns you on.

A genuine smile, nice voice, and if you handle animals well. And if you can sing and play the guitar. If you're nice to me and get my jokes and if you're funny. And like. I always found something extremely attractive about guys who enjoy serving God.

30: Talk about what turns you off.

People who swear a lot and are proud. Like. No. Stay away from me.

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

Depends on where you're going after.

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

Escape theme park! Used to go there a lot.

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

Cry. And eat chocolate and ice creams and then I feel guilty and cry somemore and then I play the guitar and then I find someone like my mum to cuddle and cry until I feel better. Haha.

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

My liquid nitrogen treatment for the warts under my foot. ):

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

Lying.

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

Um. Splurging on expensive fattening food.

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

It made me realise what I should look out for and avoid in a future partner, so I'm still glad I met him.

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

A lot leh. Haha. I can't think of any at the moment.

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

That I didn't need to worry so much about a lot of things that I did.

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

Ummm. End of secondary school. It was a bitter sweet moment.

Yupp! That's about it I think. Haha.

I'm gonna go get some rest now. My headache is coming back. Hopefully I get better soon.

Take care lovelies. Blog again soon!

xx,