(Ok. idk WHY whenever I post from my iPhone it always fails. ): Sorry!)

I wrote a pretty personal 'Dear Future Boyfriend..." note. And. I think this counts as a confession because. er. I didn't show this to anyone? So like. It kinda counts as revealing a secret. right? Right. So um. ah. You'll understand. From this note, it pretty much shows and tells a lot of things. so...just read on to understand.

There are so many things that I will tell you in person, but this I will say here.

I hope that you will realize that whatever I did in the past, the letters that I wrote, the feelings I thought were love but ended up to be nothing compared to what I feel when I’m with you, everything, that it won’t affect how I feel towards you now. I don’t know if you will have a past either. But I hope that I’ll be able to accept yours the way you’ll be able to accept mine.

I think I speak for people who have been in more than one relationship when I say this. That not all of us are privileged to meet the right one on the first try. Although I have never had a boyfriend before (as of now) , I sure hope that I’m going to be one of the few who get it right the first time around. But I do know, that I don’t fall often, and when I do, I fall hard. As cheesy as it is, I hope you’ll be there to catch me.

I may get jealous, you would probably know that I get slightly insecure around girls prettier and smarter then me, and maybe you will too, but I hope that it won’t be in relation to the people of the past, because, I know that when it comes to relationships, the only time you should look back, is to not make the same mistakes again. Other than that, there’s no point looking back, just looking at the present and looking forward.

There are so many more things to say to you, but I’ll reserve that for when we meet face to face.

I don’t know if I’ve met you yet, I don’t know if I am confidant enough to say “I hope I’ve already met you” or “I hope you’re who I think you are.”, because who other than God knows the future?

But this I know for sure, when I say yes to becoming your girlfriend, you can be sure it’s because the only person I can see, is you.

Love, Me.

Ok. That was literally the most embarrassing thing I had to proof read. You have to understand I'm a hopeless romantic and just die when I read cute things or see cute movie, but when I actually find myself saying them, or receiving them, I just freeze and don't know how to react at all.

We're not going to touch on this topic of relationships or crushes until much (much much much much much much) further notice. haha. Yupp. I don't know how this will go. But tomorrow is Thursday, so, I'm excited. (:

-

Ok. You know what. I decided that since this thing is uploaded late, I might as well do a short update on what has happened the past few days of my holiday. Wednesday was great. Like. I went to a church chalet thing and got to catch up with all my friends there. And also the army guys got to book out early, so that was really awesome. (: Well. Thursday...I don't exactly remember what I did...
Nope. I can't remember what I did right now.
OH WELL. Then let's skip to Friday. (:

Friday was National Day, and also one of the best national days I ever had. (:
It started off with breakfast, and I had one of THE best cereal in the entire world.


Yupp! MARSHMELLOW PEBBLE CEREAL OMGGGGG. I love this like. you don't even understand. [heart shape]

And then , I went to collect a race pack, and got ICE CREAM. :3


Cheesecake Ice Cream with Oreo and Graham Cracker bits from Marble Slab Creamery. Yupp. (: Although I think, the company made it taste better. ;) I always liked Ice Cream from creamery. I think it's because you get to mix whatever stuff you want inside. I just wish it wasn't so crazy expensive.

And then the rest of the day was just really well spent too. Shan't go into too much detail cuz well. I wouldn't want to bore you. :3
But just know that it was pretty amazing.

Yupp.

Oh, and remember what I said at the top about "You have to understand I'm a hopeless romantic and just die when I read cute things or see cute movie, but when I actually find myself saying them, or receiving them, I just freeze and don't know how to react at all." Uhuh. That.
Yupp.
It happened.
But, GAHHHH. :3 I just stared at it for the next 5mins just. idk.
It's a nice kinda thing to be confused about I think.

Not looking forward to this next 2 weeks, but. I will do it.
JY Carissa.

xx,

Yes, I know this is very much overdue, but not like you've been checking everyday for an update right? pssh. (If you have, I'm sorry. /gives virtual hug/ )

1. :((((((((((((((( (That's sad Carissa with her 4358 extra chins)

Ugh. P3 Submission is in less than 2 weeks. Thank God I've got an approval so far. Now it's just the irritating part of sketching and doing shiz I should have done way in advance. hastag afi. Also, I gained back my 3kg out of the 5kg which I lost during a period of time. Sighhhhh. ): I thought I was on my way to loosing weight, but nnuuuuuuuuuuuuu. I had to gain it back again. I don't really know. It's not like I've been cutting down on food or eating extra or anything. or maybe it's just subconscious loss or gain of appetite. sigh. Oh well.

2. :] (That's my hopeful smile)

Because along with all this nonsense, there's still a whole lot of good things like, my CAID-ing done, and modelling and stuff. Well. most of it. still need to make edits and stuff but it's ok. And also, my weekend came earlyyyyyyyy. :3 And with national day, and the national day spirit and what not coming around, blablablaaaaa. yeah. It should be a pretty good week. Have a whole lot of nice stuff lined up this short holiday. Tomorrow's Church event, Thursdays Family outing and Friday's National Day with special people. (: Although, yes. I'm gonna have to complete the report which is due this Monday.

Next week is gonna be pretty hard, with certain things coming and important things being affected by certain circumstances, but it's not all that bad I guess, cuz like, I'll prob have to focus and chiong by next week.

But till then, let's just focus on the now.

And now means, time to sleep and wake up early tomorrow morning to start work. Oh the lies I tell myself such as "By tonight I will finish 15 sketches!" How many did I do? 2. HAHA. CARISSA YOU JOKE.

Ok. bai

xx,

1. You're Ryan Higa. If you can sing and play the guitar

I automatically want to become friends with you. It's immediate. 

2. If you love animals and can handle them really well. 

Like. You're not squeamish over cleaning up poop or getting your hands dirty or touching them and stuff. Yeah. That's pretty attractive. Also plus point if you're not freaked out by insects because I am. 

3. A nice smile.

Because. Who doesn't find that attractive really. Who?

So submission for P3 is just 3 weeks away and idek anymore. I just want a cup of hot chocolate and good company and just sitting down on the sofa watching nice Disney Movies. Is that too much to ask? Sigh.

I want the holidays to come already, but yet, as always, that means that the deadline is closer and closer.

I'm just so drained and unmotivated to do anything. ):

Oh well. Tomorrow is Saturday, the only day where things start to make sense. Thank God for the weekends.

xx,

(Ok. idk WHY whenever I post from my iPhone it always fails. ): Sorry!)

I wrote a pretty personal 'Dear Future Boyfriend..." note. And. I think this counts as a confession because. er. I didn't show this to anyone? So like. It kinda counts as revealing a secret. right? Right. So um. ah. You'll understand. From this note, it pretty much shows and tells a lot of things. so...just read on to understand.

There are so many things that I will tell you in person, but this I will say here.

I hope that you will realize that whatever I did in the past, the letters that I wrote, the feelings I thought were love but ended up to be nothing compared to what I feel when I’m with you, everything, that it won’t affect how I feel towards you now. I don’t know if you will have a past either. But I hope that I’ll be able to accept yours the way you’ll be able to accept mine.

I think I speak for people who have been in more than one relationship when I say this. That not all of us are privileged to meet the right one on the first try. Although I have never had a boyfriend before (as of now) , I sure hope that I’m going to be one of the few who get it right the first time around. But I do know, that I don’t fall often, and when I do, I fall hard. As cheesy as it is, I hope you’ll be there to catch me.

I may get jealous, you would probably know that I get slightly insecure around girls prettier and smarter then me, and maybe you will too, but I hope that it won’t be in relation to the people of the past, because, I know that when it comes to relationships, the only time you should look back, is to not make the same mistakes again. Other than that, there’s no point looking back, just looking at the present and looking forward.

There are so many more things to say to you, but I’ll reserve that for when we meet face to face.

I don’t know if I’ve met you yet, I don’t know if I am confidant enough to say “I hope I’ve already met you” or “I hope you’re who I think you are.”, because who other than God knows the future?

But this I know for sure, when I say yes to becoming your girlfriend, you can be sure it’s because the only person I can see, is you.

Love, Me.

Ok. That was literally the most embarrassing thing I had to proof read. You have to understand I'm a hopeless romantic and just die when I read cute things or see cute movie, but when I actually find myself saying them, or receiving them, I just freeze and don't know how to react at all.

We're not going to touch on this topic of relationships or crushes until much (much much much much much much) further notice. haha. Yupp. I don't know how this will go. But tomorrow is Thursday, so, I'm excited. (:

-

Ok. You know what. I decided that since this thing is uploaded late, I might as well do a short update on what has happened the past few days of my holiday. Wednesday was great. Like. I went to a church chalet thing and got to catch up with all my friends there. And also the army guys got to book out early, so that was really awesome. (: Well. Thursday...I don't exactly remember what I did...
Nope. I can't remember what I did right now.
OH WELL. Then let's skip to Friday. (:

Friday was National Day, and also one of the best national days I ever had. (:
It started off with breakfast, and I had one of THE best cereal in the entire world.


Yupp! MARSHMELLOW PEBBLE CEREAL OMGGGGG. I love this like. you don't even understand. [heart shape]

And then , I went to collect a race pack, and got ICE CREAM. :3


Cheesecake Ice Cream with Oreo and Graham Cracker bits from Marble Slab Creamery. Yupp. (: Although I think, the company made it taste better. ;) I always liked Ice Cream from creamery. I think it's because you get to mix whatever stuff you want inside. I just wish it wasn't so crazy expensive.

And then the rest of the day was just really well spent too. Shan't go into too much detail cuz well. I wouldn't want to bore you. :3
But just know that it was pretty amazing.

Yupp.

Oh, and remember what I said at the top about "You have to understand I'm a hopeless romantic and just die when I read cute things or see cute movie, but when I actually find myself saying them, or receiving them, I just freeze and don't know how to react at all." Uhuh. That.
Yupp.
It happened.
But, GAHHHH. :3 I just stared at it for the next 5mins just. idk.
It's a nice kinda thing to be confused about I think.

Not looking forward to this next 2 weeks, but. I will do it.
JY Carissa.

xx,

Yes, I know this is very much overdue, but not like you've been checking everyday for an update right? pssh. (If you have, I'm sorry. /gives virtual hug/ )

1. :((((((((((((((( (That's sad Carissa with her 4358 extra chins)

Ugh. P3 Submission is in less than 2 weeks. Thank God I've got an approval so far. Now it's just the irritating part of sketching and doing shiz I should have done way in advance. hastag afi. Also, I gained back my 3kg out of the 5kg which I lost during a period of time. Sighhhhh. ): I thought I was on my way to loosing weight, but nnuuuuuuuuuuuuu. I had to gain it back again. I don't really know. It's not like I've been cutting down on food or eating extra or anything. or maybe it's just subconscious loss or gain of appetite. sigh. Oh well.

2. :] (That's my hopeful smile)

Because along with all this nonsense, there's still a whole lot of good things like, my CAID-ing done, and modelling and stuff. Well. most of it. still need to make edits and stuff but it's ok. And also, my weekend came earlyyyyyyyy. :3 And with national day, and the national day spirit and what not coming around, blablablaaaaa. yeah. It should be a pretty good week. Have a whole lot of nice stuff lined up this short holiday. Tomorrow's Church event, Thursdays Family outing and Friday's National Day with special people. (: Although, yes. I'm gonna have to complete the report which is due this Monday.

Next week is gonna be pretty hard, with certain things coming and important things being affected by certain circumstances, but it's not all that bad I guess, cuz like, I'll prob have to focus and chiong by next week.

But till then, let's just focus on the now.

And now means, time to sleep and wake up early tomorrow morning to start work. Oh the lies I tell myself such as "By tonight I will finish 15 sketches!" How many did I do? 2. HAHA. CARISSA YOU JOKE.

Ok. bai

xx,

1. You're Ryan Higa. If you can sing and play the guitar

I automatically want to become friends with you. It's immediate. 

2. If you love animals and can handle them really well. 

Like. You're not squeamish over cleaning up poop or getting your hands dirty or touching them and stuff. Yeah. That's pretty attractive. Also plus point if you're not freaked out by insects because I am. 

3. A nice smile.

Because. Who doesn't find that attractive really. Who?

So submission for P3 is just 3 weeks away and idek anymore. I just want a cup of hot chocolate and good company and just sitting down on the sofa watching nice Disney Movies. Is that too much to ask? Sigh.

I want the holidays to come already, but yet, as always, that means that the deadline is closer and closer.

I'm just so drained and unmotivated to do anything. ):

Oh well. Tomorrow is Saturday, the only day where things start to make sense. Thank God for the weekends.

xx,